I crave to be alone. To be able to get into bed and know that if I fidget I wont be keeping anyone up or annoying anyone. I crave to be able to read in peace, to watch TV shows by myself wrapped up in my duvet, alone. I crave to hear no voices, or no sighing or to not feel someone moving next to me and taking up the room. I love being alone, I crave it. 

But I hate being lonely.